the nightmare ='[

here i feel alone again..

with the dim lights and shifting thoughts back and forth to you

i keep racking my brain

wondering of something..

did i really love u before??

hmmp..

if i did, then can somebody else explains to me why i will feel like that?

can u?? ;'(

do u know that i start to feel disgusted with those memories..

the memories among you and me

it was a nightmare indeed

i am not able to forget..2months of nightmare that i suffered..

i try my best to forgive you and forget everything that u did to me

but at last, i m so sorry to say i could not!

i fail in forgive you!

maybe you all would say i had never fall for him..

maybe you are right, but maybe you arent..

seriously, i never enjoy with the moment which i spent with u

but..

i persist in not given up our relationship

haha..it was so sarcastic indeed

my foolish leads to compunction

it is all regretful,i hope that we have never get in any relation before..yea!

but so sorry that we could not change the fact!

i realised and revealed the lies you gave..it mad me..

i feel disgusted when i realise all of you pretty lies..you are a dude!

though you are a smart boy, but for me you are just nothing but nerd.

you are boastful and never satisfice on what you own

i cant remember what u had say to me but the complains

you never appreciated everything you have

neither of forgiveness i give since i knew you as well

i have forgotten how many time you disappointing me

you guys would ever know how i feel when i recall those memories..

it should be sweet but it isnt as that to me

i never want to admit it..but i could not do so..

arwwww..TT

wondering of how to escaped from these misery

* treat it as a valuable lesson *

p/s: dont try to make fun of my pain

because we cant assure that you may undergo the same thing that i have

please get away from me!

i dont want to know everything about you even your photo

out off my mind

you will never be remembered

you gave me nothing but scar

i think it will be recovered after a period

exam stress

hey guys..let's shout together..' ahHHHHHHHHHH!!! '

do u all feel a bit better right now??if not..

shout again la.. ' AHhhhhhhhHHHHhhhhhhHHHHHHHHH '

well..i feel better now, do u ???

hahah..please forgive me with stupid and crazy attitude..i just want to release my stress!this is my only way to release my tension..i guess i have some mental problem after revising all the day..i study days and nights!!it is torturing me!!guess what? i wake up at 4am every morning just to study..hmmp..*i think it is more suitable to use 'night' to replace the word of 'morning'..

i sacrifice my sleeping time to study!!well..i know that is not a good study habitual, but i have get used to this bad habitual~ i only have fresh mind to study at that time..and i can remember all the thing easily at that moment! so ,why not i just keep on my way to study! JUST DO WHATEVER U LIKE =)

honestly, i have had no put much effort on it compare to last time~i did lotza revision and past year question before i stepped in the exam field..but now,i have only done some revision and without doing any past year question..neither past year question nor modal paper i have done..though that, i hope to score straight A's.. it is abit being too greedy to possess such wishes~but, no doubt that i m the GREEDY ONE..every time i set up my mind to finish some chapter, but at the end of the day i just read NOTHING!owh..poor me~

i think i should go die..LOL..XD

okie..was having BM paper today..I got some tips..all the question were just sent to anywhere..i was not really trust on the tips when i received..because of my laziness, yet i only study what the tips mention..OMG!i cant believe that i bet my future with the tips..fortunately,the question were exactly the same..it just came out like what the tips mention~~it was so nicety!god bless..hahaa..i made some mistake on my paper 1..haiz..

for not disappointing again, i should off to study now..BYE..^^

i feel so ill recently

suffer from the ladies' thing..

ishh..

我也知道

i have almost forgotten how to smile sweetly like a sweet candy

the way i smile is just like a zombie force to have some emotion on their face

有时，我真的不懂该如何做！

你的好，让我越来越无法接受。。

你的好，让我觉得自疚~

我不知道我想怎样，请你别再追问下去了

拒绝，不舍得

接受，不愿意

饶了我吧！

我总是犹豫该踏出这一步没有

我真的希望我能很潇洒地拒绝你~

可是就是不行~

不是因为我爱你，而是我被我的贪念给俘虏了~

我贪图现在的玩乐~

我知道对不起，并不能带来什么弥补的作用~

但，我真的无能为力了！

男女之间，难道就不可以单纯点吗？

男生就真的那么现实吗？

对你好只为了你成为他们的另一伴~

我真的希望你从来没有喜欢过我。。

或许这样我会比较好过吧

原谅我的自私

试问有谁不是为自己想先的？

我始终过不了自己那一关~

我接受不了他人对我另一半的批判

我接受不了那些闲言闲语

啊！！！

请你们别再这样了

那样的行为只会引起我的反感

别毁灭那一点点的好感

love is gone and my heart is a bird

that has lost direction mid-flight

MY NEW LOVERS

ishhh..no doubt that i become lazy and lazier recently..i suppose to study right now but yet i m still siting in front of the computer and chatting..although i realize trial is around the corner, but still i have had no any strongly motivate to do revision~
i am still thinking where to go for spending my 2 weeks holiday~* owh goshhh..kill me la..XD
everytime i hold my book, my laziness will tell me that owh-super-sleepy mood la..after that, i go to take a nap~ishhhh.. i cant be that anymore!!!

SHELBY!!!IT IS NOT A GOOD TIME FOR PLAYING LA!!!
*i noe i noe la..==

imma going to fail my exam???imma going to say BYE to my A's??
*that are what have i asked myself for N times...*
can someone else tell me and remind me to study hard???!!!!
i must start my revision!i must study hard day and night!!!
please~dont despise the power of play~
it really will lead u to failure~

i could really feel the nervous and the pressure since i got the trial time table~it kill me badly!
it still left 3more weeks to go and i have been sitting for the trial~ i dont hope to get a suck result!
my brain now is telling me :' owh..imma so nervous!'

i have made my promise again!and this time, i wont break the promise anymore!! NO WAY!!i trust on my ability to say no to play~i want a bright future so i should working hard to prove it!! my bright future is not a dream for me but it may comes true one day~i believe that i will be super happy mood when i get the pretty result~so why dont i just suffer for these few month and after that i can enjoy with my life~ chill shelby!GO SHELBY! ;P

SAY BYE TO MY LOVE [ PLAYING ]

SAY NO TO MY DEAR [ OUTING]

REJECT THE DATE WITH MY HONEY [ FACEBOOK ]

REJECT THE DATE WITH MY DARLING [ BLOG ]

I M IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BABIES

WHICH ARE

[ BM]

[BI ]

[ BC ]

[ MORAL ]

[ ACCOUNT ]

[ HISTORY ]

[ SCIENCE ]

[ GEOGRAFI ]

[ MATHEMATIC ]

will not update my blog till i finish my trial..

^^

bye