没用。。

算了！！
在你们的眼里我就是这样的人。。
再多的解释都没用~~
信任再也没有了~~~

我说什么都没用了~~
因你们已经下判定了~~
我被你们判死刑！！！

为什么？？？！！！！

GREEN HOUSE

GREEN HOUSE CHEERLEADER!!!

pls dun let me feel down..TT

pls cooperate v me!!!

GREEN HOUSE MUST BE THE WINNER!!!!!!!!!

I AM NOT A GOOD LEADER TO LEAD U ALL..

I KNOW IT!!

SAD,,,

somethg drive me crazy

dont feel sad anymore dear~~he doesnot worth it!!!
be more tough girl...he is juz a passer-by in ur life!!stand up again..
we are supporting u!!!dont worry!!!we all are single..so u dont need to be alone..
dun be sad!!we wan our cheerful girl back...!!i miss tat girl who alway make lots of joy n joke~
we cnt help u anythg..u cant only helped by urself!dun b cheated anymore~~u noe him well..
dont waste time..y dont u juz thk at it is mayb a good starting??journey is full of challenge~
dun give up easily!!!


full of pressure!!my mind stuck now..i wan refresh my mind..!!
somebody willing to help me??
i need more time for resting..!!i m really lack of sleep...feeling exhausted！！almost falling ill..

很伤心！又吵架了！

别每次那样好吗？

我听见了内容～觉得自己很像拖累了你们！

哭了！！

心中有无数的心结难以解开！

我伤心但又不懂如何说出口。。

担心！！

我忍得好辛苦～

TT

sadness..

i hate it!!!
i m so sad n upset!!
those teachers are so bad!!they juz look down of my ability!!
they tot tat i willl not able to carry the job of ketua cheerleader!!
it is all because i study at 5A3!!!???
excuse me!!i would like to DO SOME explain OF y i will get in this class~

i study at this class is bcoz of u all not allow me to study at science class ok?!!
i gt 6A bt u all still do so..u told me tat science class was full indeed~~wat??!!
i dun thk so!!my fren gt 4A bt got in science stream class too..it is really unfair for me!!
it is fine for studying at 5A3..bt please tOT tat i m stupid k??!!
my result is good anyway..i m better then mny of them..!!!
so please teacher!!down try to look down on me!!!though my english is so poor~~

i am going to let u all regret!!i will carry my job as good as i can!!!juz wait for my result!
n dont b too surprice tat!!!
I HATE TO LET PPL LOOK DOWN ON ME!!!
I M NOT A STUPID STUDENT!!
DONT JUDGE PPL WITH THEIR APPEARANCE~~!!!

烦啊烦

烦啊烦啊!!
时间不够用!!!我需要更多的时间啦～～
压力!!!*搞到痘痘出现了~~
睡眠时间不够!!*虽然睡了7个小时..
考试了!!!!!*还没准备好!!!
啦啦队!!!!**烦死了!!
补习!!**时间不够,和其他活动相撞~
学会!!!**乱七八糟!到底我还是不是负责人??如果不是请快点说..那我就能少烦件事了..


啊!!!!!!!!!!!!
别理我..
只是来发发牢骚..^^

晚安咯！！

school day

2nd day of school day..

our class teacher hav changed~EN HAMDAN isnit our class teacher anymore..

replace for MR PAKRASH..*i dunno tat whether spelling correct..watever la..TEEHEE..

no comment for him..i dunno know him well..

bt i heard mny of his history from others..

no doubt,he can speak with well english..so,he is our english form teacher..!

he rearrange our seat~so GUESS wat??!!yenli n iky juz sit far apart from me..he juz arrange us to sit with malay..*he emphasize to the slogan..1 MALAYSIA~== so,now i sit v FARAH..i m surrounded by malay..FARAH sit at my left side n AMIN sit at right side..SHIH WEI sit front of me,n KYSON sit at the back..owh~~i hate SHIH WEI!!he is too tall n block my view!!*gosh..surrounded by NORHANANI,HAMDAN,NAJHAN.. anyway..is okay for me actually.. not big deal..

i am a class monitor now..haha..n my partner EUGENE!!no doubt,i juz sit thr n do nothing..haha~i juz wan to hv a certificate only..tat is my purpose..poor EUGENE..he helps me alot and i juz giv him all the job..**he is so responsible!!^^

hav a nice day today.. HAMDAN is funny.. our poor YENLI said broken malay v him..

their conversation

HAMDAN: macam mana kamu balik rumah??

YENLI : saya ANGKAT bas la..

HAMDAN : wah!kamu sangat kuatnya..tunggu bas dan nampak bas kamu nak angkat ke?? angkat balik..

haahaha...really so funny..can u juz imagine tat a girl wants to carry a bus home??omg!i cant stop laughing at there...^0^

well,if u all juz treat me as transparent~

i hv had no comment anymore!!

i hv ady adapt to those treatment..

TT

new year eve

31st of december..whaoooo!!our long awaiting day!!!!but it gone with bored n lamed..yea..went out with my girls..chatted v phui ann dear before went for BBQ..had my dinner with my family then...8pm went yeekee's house by cab..lol==i was so mad!!bcoz of i dint know whr's her house located at..n my phone was low credit!!i cant make any call for them,so i borrowed phone from tat mr.cab..gosh!!troublesome.!!after that,started our BBQ ~ ermm...i juz ate abit coz felt full~~got a present from yeekee..i got a mask..n weiann got a bra..!!haha!!i like it so muchhh...



finished our BBQ, we rushed back to ann's house..they need to make up..haiz..changing clothes,make up,... we took half an hour for ready..looked at the time..guess wat..??it was already 12am..gosh!!our plan..broke~K.O..


i love my blue cons..^^






yea..no doubt!that is me..i noe it look alike a mouse..ahaha

we planed for going to sgwg count down at the begining..bt we was late!!n we decided to go sunway..every1 finished their counting,bt we juz arrived..damn it!!u noe how much we paid for the cab??RM40 for goin to SUNWAY from OUG!!!crazy man..we was so shock n felt BAD...@@ we took some photo from there thn took cab went back KUCHAI LAMA..*we wanted to go KUCHAI LAMA at 1st..we chg our mind at a sudden..==

i m so fat as a big giant!!!

I LOOK WEIRD IN THIS PHOTO..

waste another RM30 for went back KUCHAI LAMA from SUNWAY...those policemen theRE were so kindly n friendly..^^they wished me n smile at me..^^enen..GOOD!!2.40am ++ reached KUCHAI..i hang around thr without any purpose~we met FIKRY thr...he called me n shouted my name..owh!!he can recognise me..hhaaha..he rode his bike n followed me..so funny..after that met weibing at HOLLYWOOD..met mny sentosa ppl there..they drunked..lamma phoned SAI WAI to join us..kay..he reached..n his frens..SAI HONG,YY,SIEW FONG GOR..

we decided to go club..bt then was ady 4am..n his car got blocked by policemen..haha..he paid for RM100~~poor them..luckily we was escaped from it..but the policemen said that izint we come from CHINA!!!wat??!! @@ we showed our IC..*excuse me..we are 100% RAKYAT MALAYSIA!!! the plan for club was failed.. we went for tea at the mamak..* i still remember that place.. chit-chat there...his fren,SIEW FONG GOR was damn funny..his joke was so funny..we juz cant stop laughing at him..BABY MILO has the well-looking the most!yea!!* he is my TEA,bt i am not..== 5am around..went for snooker..beside the KFC..we played it!!n ofcoz i noe how to play after he taught me~~!!*our GRANDEUR coach,SIEW FONG GOR!!!**clapp..**

listen for the coach..haha

my butt so big!!

yea..acting..haha

tis two oso la..acting..they are actress!

cutie chu..acting oso

snooker is a tiring activity!!i was so tired after tat..we met MENGWAI N HIS FRENS there..BABYMILO so cool n man while he was concentrating for playing snooker~~damn attractive!!hehehe**devil smile**
7am sumthg we went ABC MAMAK to continue our program..those guys went home n slept..thx SAI WAI for fetching us..they were so good anyway..our part..eating..

finished eating,we walked back to my house..lol..y is the journey from abc to my house so far??!!i was so tired n sleepy!!!HATE IT!!8AM arrived..after bathing ,i slept for awhile at 9am..12pm..they waked me up!!went for breakfast..SIEW FONG GOR goin to belanja us..hoho^^we ate DIM SUM.. after that, iky n lamma went ts for gathering..ann n me went home..i was damn tired!!!!

shame

i swear i m not going to hv any relationship v u all..!!

gosh!!

damn shame!!!

i hate u all!!

dont find me please...

感想

well..2009 will be the end soon...the time pass briefly..it ends whn i start to enjoy it..full of confuse sentiment right now..i hv alot of thg goin to write in here..so,it may be a long posting i hv ever typed in here..

i hv learned so much in this year..exspeacially from my new school ..i hav started to be a lazy student since the mid term..i wonder noe y..mayb is my problem or other else bt i juz cant explain the reason..

nw i hv be used to study at my new school now-smk sri sentosa..no doubt,i m more liking to be a chkl's student!!the only thg tat i still regret is i made my decision to translate school at the begining..i cnt even noe y i would to do such decision in the begining..1st i chg to smk desa perdana which alison move to..*bt she changed back to her old school at last.. n i??!!wat could a girl do whn tat girl translate to a stupid rubbish school that she cnt accept it n dislike it.??i cant make my decision to chg back chkl!!*i sms v CHAOYANG N JOJO n told them wat was happening on me..finally i chg to smk sri sentosa.. smk sri sentosa isnt a school tat i really love..i dunlike the environment thr..although i hv tried my best to chg my mind..bt i could!!i cried everyday at nite b4 i went to sleep~i cried on my bed n i couldnot let my parents noe~~it was really suffering..everytime i flash back those thg,i would cry~the tears was cnt controlled by myself..it drops down such as a natural phenomena~i hide in my bedquilt n cried..i might not to let my parents noe..i juz kept it as my secret in my heart n not to let them knew!i went to school with a complicated mood..i gt cried easily!!i cried whn i heard somebody started to discuzz about me..moody whn i felt i was alone in school..upset while i was missing chkl..we are now far apart..we started to be speechless since we hv had less contact..i was so alone at the begining..noe nobody thr..i felt nothing~i hv no fren thr..i was not be used to live with loneness!SERIOUSLY CANT!! after that, i joined cheerleading there..i made some fren with them..hobnob with CHU N ANN..the 1st month i studied at smkss,i bullied by malays..i SCARED them!!bt i had had no told my parents!it was juz a waste if i told them how was my feeling..!!few more month later,i started to try my best for changing my mind..n now i hv changed alot..not only my mind but my style..*many of them cnt stand for me..they said i hv ady change..i m so strange for them.. is fine to hear that comment from my frens.. they cnt understand how hard i gonna chg..

i wan to be more tough..i may not to show out my weakness..i may not show out how scared m i n how sad m i～i bear my tears..i bear everything that nobody will know includes my mum..she doesnot know what m i thinking of..we hv a bad relationship~we cant juz sit down n chat..*maybe is my problem!i cnt even noe why she juz like to scold me without a good reason!heR TREATMENT is so UNFAIR FOR ME..

once a term,i was feeling bad emotion everyday..I did some childish stuff!but now i wont do it again..well..if u are my fren,u will know wat happen on me at that time..i failed in a relation..bt it really not a big deal for me now..thx for everyone tried to comfort me..i tried all my 1st time in this year..1st time to be a cheerleader,went night market with frenz,ponteng class,made frens with malay, met haoren n his dance gang, sing perform, clubbing v frens, went genting at midnite, yamcha at night, n mny nite activities, gt a part time job v hamdan, stayed hamdan's house for few days, gt lesen, started to make up n many more~these are a good experience for me..conclusion for me from this year is really full of sadness and happiness!!

here are some buddy i would like to appreciate..*i would like to type in chinese..

JOJO

感谢一路来的陪伴..每次的难过都有你的安慰..认识了6年踏进7年了..没有你陪的下课真的很不习惯..不过我还是需要自己一个人下课..感谢你那时的肩旁..虽然是小了那么一点,但还是很感激!认识了那么久,该说的不该说的都已经说完了..在这也不需多写..只是想说今年我们真的很少一起出街了..每次说要出都最后都不了了之..明年要加油咯..

FOOLOY

哎呀..哪里能少得了你..今年才认识你但是在我最伤心最无助的时候感谢你给的意见和开导..我知道我们变熟是因为那时候..哈哈..我的一切心情都被你看穿!无法对你有任何的隐私!!时常看穿我..我的面具在你眼前是无用的..谢谢你的了解!!我记得那时每次都在msn互相安慰!但是我知道我的安慰对你来说也起不了什么作用..但,这一切都已成过去..现在和女友很幸福咯..别难过了!!大头!!哈哈!!

其实那时你有没有觉得我很烦的叻???

SHIHWEI

你啊你..我的朋友!!你是第一个竟然和我一起回家的人!!还在我房间用我的电脑!还把我家当你家般,开电脑都不必问我的啦!!讨厌死了!!不过算了~谢谢你!因为你愿意倾听我的诉苦..很多的事我都告诉你叻~~有一阵子我们的确很好,但是原谅我之后的不理睬!因为我真很讨厌你的自卑!!每次劝你你又不听!!每个人都是特别的,没有的做比较!!希望新的一年,你真的能过得更好~

VIVIAN N KIANYEE

感谢你们..感谢你们一直邀请我去你们的教会..

JINGYAN

你..你是我的恩人~我刚转校来的时候,都是你在帮我..真的太感谢你了!!虽然有时说话就是那么爱面子,但有谁不爱的呢..?谢谢你每次都那么关心我..

EUGENE

傻佬一个!每次都被我骂,但最后还很感谢我!每次都那么爱多管闲事!但你的好,让我很感激!你是我在班认识的第一个男的..每次有什么事,你一定帮我..帮我搬椅子桌子还帮我拿书包!放学又陪我走出去!真的很感动!!不过有时你的态度真的令我又气又爱~不懂要如何是好..生气的时候,本来已经很气了,可是你总是不怕我,总是要让我骂骂你,然后你就会觉得我很野蛮..哈哈!不过骂了你后,我就会笑了!真的对不起,把你当成出气筒!说真的~我真的很喜欢你这个朋友..你对我太好了..每次吩咐你的事,你都会做~每次都很迁就我..爱死你了..呵呵..你啊你!!别那么幼稚了..做人别那么八卦了,还有别乱传绯闻..不知道的事别胡说..好不好..??

KYSON

想不到我会写你?还是你懂我会??随便拉~反正我就是要写..!放心!我不是要骂你..哈哈!说真的,你真的是个很好的朋友..但不是很好的男友..我喜欢和你做朋友的感觉!因为你总是会察言观色..在适合的时候说适合的话语..我不知道你到底在想什么不过我知道你并不坏!你有你自己一套的生活..我知道那时我们是一时冲动,又或则是我而已..但真的很感谢你!如果不是你,我就不会想那么多..如果不是你让我伤心,我就不会察觉原来我身边有那么多人关心~如果我知道我们会变得如此,我就不会做出当初的抉择..请别再逃避我,我不会对你有任何的感觉了..放心吧!以前的一切,我放下了..那些是我美好的回忆..既然忘不了那就把它收好..其实我喜欢你这样的朋友..别误会..不是那种喜欢!所以别在装看不见我了.. 我欣赏你的勇气..欣赏你的思想!~哈哈!新的一年,把以前的事忘了吧..*可能你已忘了很久..但我很诚实对你说,前一阵子我才忘了..^^ 当你看完我的这一片，就代表我们刚认识吧~~好吗??

PHUI ANN
哈哈..最近常和你VIDEO CALL..感觉不错哦..谢谢你陪我逛街..超喜欢和你一起逛的..很棒!!每次都逛的我们很累..昨晚和你聊,要劝劝你哦..别那么容易相信网上的人哦..还有!!每次和你出都会发生糗事的咯..可恶...那个男的一点都不大方～小气死了！！一点男子气概都没有！！他会后悔的。。

chaoyang
你啊你。。每次约你你都不出！！真是的。。看到你被人甩还真可怜下。。不过那女的都不好。。喜欢我还好啦...呵呵..每次都和你简讯但最近没了..可怜!!简讯你竟然不回??多大的胆子啊?!!我很想念你啊!!!

*MY GANG*
我的姐妹们..全部都是今年认识的..虽然到现在我还是觉得自己和你们很不熟..关系也没好的像楚河林妈,屁和安..或许我是你们刚认识的~很多事我还是不敢和你们说!很多事我都不能说..怕你们觉得我烦或是什么的..总觉得自己是多的一个..我不懂得如何安慰你们..你们有事我都不能第一时间安慰你们..我很希望能和你们很好很好..好到像那些无说不谈的朋友!

楚,你是在里面当中我最喜欢的一个..不知道为什么,就觉得你比较亲切..和你比较熟吧..然后很喜欢和你说话..你的话语你的动作我都觉得很好笑~每次你一很有自信的时候,那个样子我都觉得有趣..呵呵..我记得你是第一个来我家过夜的哦..谢谢那时的陪伴..也谢谢你的安慰..那时你哭,我不懂该说什么..请原谅我~

艳历,你也是和我比较熟的..因为同班也一起做工..第一次和你上云顶..感觉不错..不过很讨厌你..你每次乱说话!和你说的秘密都告诉人..受不了了..每次打来骚扰我睡觉..哈哈..每次都说些有的没的!!过后你就拍拖了!!然后就不得空里我们咯...哈哈!!没关系..你幸福就好..^^

林妈,唉...每次看你的部落格都伤心过人的..真是的..其实我真的没有觉得你很坏..他也没和我说什么啦..只是聊了几封吧啦..我那时真的很怕你生气我,然后我就烦了很久,要不要和你说..过后原来你知道了..你没怪我,还关心我什么事..真的很感动!!真的不想让你误会!!对不起啊..为什么说我死撑哦..我真的已经放下了啦..不过是说说而已嘛..也没特别开心或什么的..

安,哈哈!最近比较聚在一起..你实在是很好人！！请我吃东西..哈哈..我们一起打肚环哦..可是为什么你的不痛~~真是的..迟点再去打耳洞哦..其实我真的不是很懂你..你的事我更不清楚!你们也不曾和我说..只是看你的部落格然后懂罢了~谢谢你的大笨象!哈哈.时常在我们回家..

屁,哇..和你更不必说了..简直就是不熟到极点啊..出街的次数也可以数..别整天说自己肥咯!!明明身材就好到不得了!!讨厌到!!我才肥过你!!你只是高过我罢了..懂不??

你们啊..我要澄清!!我没有爱哭咯..真的没有!!然后我不觉得我自己的身材有好到哪里去..肥到死就有!!又矮哦..可怜的我..样子不好..身材没有...唉..可悲咯...还有!!那时我真的没有哭!!我的眼睛本来就水汪汪的啦..哈哈..

接下来的是...
你..谢谢你还没忘记我..谢谢你的等待..我真的很感动..可是很抱歉每次的答案都伤害你..或许你只是问问罢了..不过每次我都想给你一次机会,但到最后你就笨到不懂我的答案的意思..算了吧..你是唯一一个追了那么久还没放弃的人..可能现在你已经放弃了..我们还是朋友..其他的我不在想了..明年你在问我的话..我可能会说恩..^^

你,对不起谢谢..对不起,我拒绝你..谢谢你给我的一切安慰..但是我真的很惊讶当我知道我的猜测是正确的时候..更令我想不到的是,那么久了你还喜欢我..那天还告白!我真的不想回答你的问题,因为真的不想给了答案后,我们以后见面会有疙瘩~为什么你要告诉我??为什么你继续把它当成秘密??我讨厌拒绝人家,尤其是我的朋友..你知道的..我一直把你当成什么..你已经发觉你对我只是错觉了吗??你不是真的..相信我!那是错觉..你的眼光没那么差..对不起!我暂时还是无法当不知道..毕竟知道了就是知道了..对不起...你会看到吗???

你,你的也是错觉啦..你不懂得分辨朋友的喜欢和情侣间的喜欢..你只是一时错觉..不过看来你现在已经懂了..很好!!不过不懂为什么我可以把你的当成不知道..呵呵..或许你比较像我弟弟多一点~

你,谢谢你那么好人来载我..你是我第一个认识回来载我的陌生人..不过你不是我的茶..我也知道我不是你的茶..哪里可能喜欢小妹妹的??!!对不对??朋友罢了..但谢谢你!!竟敢灌醉我!!然后竟然喝到你的口水!!我今生难忘!!!啊!!!!!!!!!!!恶心到!!!!!!!!!!

你,求求你跟你的朋友们解释吧..我已经解释道口都干了..我真的不特别啦..我不想拒绝人了啦~很痛苦啊..不想被人说我很高傲啊...不可能的事就别去想了..

你,别发了几封简讯就说喜欢我好不好??你当我傻的哦??我真的对你没兴趣...唉..

你,约我去倒数,结果我说与人有约,你就说是我约你先..哇...你可以别那么白痴吗?拒绝了..对不起...


tats' all now..it really so long...whao..finally i hv finished it..^^actually i still hv alot wanna to post,bt i m so laszy n tired now...

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone..^^^

big days on december..

12/12/09

taadaa..sit for undang test..i pass it!!47/50~xiuu..so happy n excited after finished the test..hiehie..^^V i m a L lesen holder..

after finished the test, i rush back to home n change my clothes..after that,rush to salak south lrt to meet phuiann..i date her to sungaiwang n ts~

acting..actually phui ann juz wan to take my side photo..

bt i look like a duck..==

juz acting like i m choosing a shirt..

i luv tis

we juz hang around de shopping centre..we bought BB cream moist..50%!!worth it!!n i would like to choose a pair of high heel shoes..bt buy ntg at last..after that,we head to low yat..meet hueyyih thr..she work as a partimer there..selling P1 wimax..==haha..impossible she work..bt she does..after that,phuiann goes home alone..i love to shop with her..^^yeah!!we will date again..^^

9pm sumthg reached home..received iky's msg..n feidundun them phoned me..ask me yamcha..actually i was not willing to go v them..i was exhausted!!bt i went with them at finally..==

tis is feidundun

14/12/09-18/12/09

went back my hometown with my brother...he wants to stay with grandmum..he is so fealty~*no doubt if compare to him,i m not..went back by bus..the bus was late!we stayed for 5 day 4 night..came back at 18th..whao..the weather thr was as hot as a oven~i was goin to get burn..==eat quite alot thr..the food thr is tasty bt cheap!!went cc for online at 4th day...went back kl by bus at 18th 6pm..my aunt came n fetched us..

1st day..took it at pudu bus station

2nd day

having dinner..

cutie~

fatty~

he bcome more n more chubby ady..haha

tis 2 ppl a..keep making noise..

my bro wanted to make a school uniform..

3rd day.. he was acting man..==

raining day!!gosh..it wet me..


my silly grandmum..

i asked her to smile..haha

looked!!y everyone was looking at the same way..??

is me..^^

19/12/09

a long waiting gathering was held at maggie's house...^^we had a lot of fun thr..20 or 30 of us..*i was not sure..forgot ady..paiseh.. alison's mum fetched me to zhixin's house~after that,zhixin's mum fetched 3 of us to maggie's house..we spent quite a long time to find the way to her house..chit-chat v alison in the car..^^xixi..went home at 11pm..we chit-chat there..played some mini game..sang song..joking..maggie's mum still remember me..she still rmb my name..hoho..so touching..T2T..taking lots of photo..

with spec

without spec..

i love my smile in this photo..

chhuuu...

i wasnot crying..

my god sis..carmen..

zhixin n me

*juz half of my face..==

maine lynn..my 3rd wife..ahaha

shinnyee n me

weepin n me

lucy n me.

model le..

6H monitor..karyan n me

maggie n me

my 1st wife

joon weng n me..

he chg alot..cnt recognize ady..

i luv his smile...

yongkheng n me..

my darling alison n me

bibi n baby hui..haha

carmen n me..

my daddy n me (yinteng)

my dearest wife jojo n me

greedy us..

sweet couple..ahaha..jojo n yongkheng..

separate them

weird me

we are god..haha..

all spec..

game time..

girls..

actually juz wan to take those guy..ignored it.

i m guy too..^^

girls..

guys...

wee^^Y